I am more excited than I've been in a long time. I can't stop smiling! I want to jump up and down and sing songs about God know what. I want and need to express what I'm feeling but I can't. This is crazy. How did this happen? How come I meet this cute, funny boy on my last fucking day in London? It's not fair. He makes me smile, really smile. This was not supposed to happen. I was supposed to just be me for a while. Done with with men, just be me. Although he's awfully cute. And he makes me smile like a fool.

I'm counting the days till you get here, bejb. You have no idea how excited I am.

This is insane.. ^^

I destroy homes, I tear families apart,

Take your children and that's just the start.

I’m more costly than diamonds, more precious than gold,

The sorrows I bring is a sight to behold.

If you need me, remember, I’m easily found

I’m all around you in schools and in town.

I live with the rich, I live with the poor,

I live down the street and maybe even next door.

I’m made in a lab but not how you think,

I can be made under the kitchen sink.

In your child's closet and even in the woods.

If this scare you to death, well it certainly should.

I have many names but one you’d know best

I'm sure you've heard of me, my name is Crystal meth.

My power is awesome; try me you'll see,

But if you do you may never break free.

Just try me once and I might let you go,

But try me twice and I'll own your soul.

When I possess you, you’ll steal and you’ll lie,

You’ll do what it takes just to get high.

The crimes you’ll commit for the high and fame

Will be worth millions once I get in your veins.

You’ll lie to your mom and steal from you dad,

When you see their tears you should feel sad.

But you'll forget your morals and how you were raised,

I'll be your conscience, I'll teach you my ways.

I’ll take your friends, your control, your pride,

But I’ll always be with you right by your side.

You’ll give up everything, your family, your home,

your friends, your money, then you'll be alone.

I’ll take and I’ll take till you have nothing more to give,

When I'm finished with you, you’ll be lucky to live.

If you try me be warned, this is no game,

Given the chance I’ll drive you insane.

I'll ravish your body, I'll control your mind,

I'll own you completely, your soul will be mine.

The nightmares I'll give you while lying in bed,

The voices you'll hear from inside your head.

The sweats, the shakes, the visions you'll see,

I want you to know, these are all gifts from me.

Then it's too late and you'll know in you heart,

That you're mine and we shall not part.

You'll regret that you tried me, they always do,

But you came to me not I to you.

You knew this would happen, many times you were told,

but you challenged my power and chose to be bold.

You could have said no and just walked away,

If you could live that day over, now what would you say?

I'll be your master, you'll be my slave,

I'll even go with you when you go to your grave.

Now that you have me, what will you do?

Will you try me or not? It's all up to you.

I can bring more misery than words can tell,

Come take my hand, let me lead you to hell.

Written by Alicia VanDavi